And though I had slain a thousand foes less one,
The thousandth knife found my liver;
The thousandth enemy said to me,
'Now you shall die,
Now none shall know.'
And the fool, looking down, believed this,
Not seeing, above his shoulders, the naked stars,
Each one remembering.
--John M. Ford, The Final Reflection

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"The only thing I was fit for was to be a writer, and this rested solely on my suspicion that I would never be fit for real work, and that writing didn't require any." - Russel Baker

Monday, May 18, 2009

So I'm Single

I'm single and, unlike many others in this situation, I don't pay much heed to that fact. I've never felt the need or the desire to attach myself romantically and emotionally to a girl in a manner that can be described as being said girl's boyfriend. Not that I'm disinterested in girls, mind you. Merely not interested or motivated enough to actively seek one out. This is of no real consequence to me, and proves to be no real hindrance to most of my interests. Still, once in a while, somebody - exactly who asks it varies, but sooner or later, someone will - asks that annoying little question.

"When are you going to get a girlfriend?"

I usually don't mind, and would regularly offer a flippant, uncaring response. I'd cite things like time or money more often than not, as having a girlfriend would require both and they are resources I have no interest in squandering on anyone but myself at the moment. Frankly, I barely make enough to do that as is. See, a girlfriend is really a luxury I can't afford. And yes, that's essentially what having a girlfriend is, when you boil it down to the most basic terms: a luxury.

I don't need one to keep going on with my life, now do I? I don't see having one as being a necessity for any aspect of my life as it is now. Having one right now has a low chance of adding anything to it, really. Other than just another way for me to alleviate my boredom for a brief moment, or someone to talk to to take my mind off work and, thus, delay my finishing my daily tasks. I think I have enough of those already, thank you very much.

Under most circumstances, it doesn't really annoy me when people ask why I'm still single. Under most circumstances. There are times when I find it annoying beyond all sense when they ask, though. Usually when the one asking is someone that has asked it consistently and should already know what the answer is.

The honest truth is that I'm quite fine in being single, and have no interest in undertaking a course of action that would make me otherwise. My mind is a mess and my life is far from ideal, and adding a girlfriend into the mix will only further complicate matters. Besides, I'm happy as things are now, with me having time for my projects and interests, as opposed to having to keep my thoughts occupied by thinking of someone else.

I'm single and, contrary to how people seem to think, I don't feel the need to go looking. Nor do I feel sad that I'm not attached. So honestly, I'd appreciate it if people stopped asking me if I want to meet this friend of theirs or if they want the number of this cute, single girl they know. It can get frustrating. Mind you, I'd like the numbers of cute single girls, but not for the purposes of pursuing them. I'm odd that way.


Cough Syrup Junkie said...

"a girlfriend is really a luxury I can't afford."

--haha. if a girl is high- maintenance, then she becomes a luxury-- you like her but you dont need her.

shurikenstuff said...

hmmm, nice insights and I really thought i was the only single guy having this "responsibility" to answer why i still dont have a freaking girlfriend.

I understand what you mean when you dont feel the need to attach urself to someone because for me, the time isn't right YET. unlike you whose pretty bored (and screaming for his USB port back, haha)I like to try activities and sports for further improvement so girls will become a distraction and I couldnt bear to explain myself about whiny things like "why didnt you call me back?" or where have you been?" (shudders) big big trouble, ei?.