Fitting

This picture is oddly fitting for what's going on with my friend, I think. "Something beautiful is now unraveling and fragmenting," she told me.

Distracted Focus

I need to focus more on the distractions of my life. Anyway, random mini-topics now.

First:
The office is moving. My current place of employ is moving locations to one that is going to take longer for me to get to than it currently is. I am not happy with this, but for the sake of decent pay, I'll put up with this shit. I already walk a lot to and from work to get to the MRT station, and do not relish the idea of needing to walk even further to get to work. It's annoying.


Second:
I'm stumped for something to write. I've ended Darkness & Stars at a somewhat reasonable point, but have decided not to spread it out yet. Maybe when I feel more like spreading awful writing out onto the Internet. As for other projects, I'm drawing a blank. I want to write, but I can't think of anything to write. I take this as proof of the old claim I once made: work kills creativity.


Third:
I have delved back into playing video games in what spare time I can muster. I've got a Gameboy Advance emulator, Warriors Orochi, Samurai Warriors 2, Blood-Over, and Baldur's Gate II all on my PC right now. Oh, and a little beauty called Gadget Trial. Will likely install Planescape: Torment later, too. Been playing a lot more Magic than usual lately, now that I think about it.


Fourth:
I have far too much anime waiting in the wings to be watched, and not enough time or motivation to watch them. Right now, I've decided to focus my attention on Code Geass R2 and Koihime Musou. Once one of them is done, I'll fire up ef - A Tale of Memories, or any of the others in the pipeline.


Fifth:
For a few reasons, I am not happy. In fact, I'm arguably downright depressed. I assume it will pass. It usually does.

Agony

Words cannot describe how much pain I feel right now. So I drown myself in distractions. In video games. In work. In writing. Anything to take my mind off what how awful, empty, and depressed I feel.

Don't ask for an explanation, please. It's far too personal.

The Other Side Of A Pillow

You probably know how it feels. When you rest your head on a pillow all through the night, and when you turn it over and lay your head on it again, it feels...cool, somehow. More comforting. More soothing. Even though it is the same pillow. It's an odd feeling, and one that is so very fleeting. Yet, for what it's worth, it is probably as close to pure, untouched, divine calm as anyone can possibly get while still alive. The sensation is like a string of beautiful music: easy to remember, but impossible to catch. Of course, there are times when that feeling happens to you in life. When that same comfort, that same sense of security, rightness, and calm manifests because of something said or an event - even a minor one. The sensation is positively...intoxicating.

While the story will not be told, the twisted, creative side of me just had one.

And it is a good feeling.

Product Of Boredom

First and foremost, I love the hybrid mechanic. It just makes things so much easier, and allows mono-color decks to access cards and abilities they wouldn't be able to otherwise. Which is probably why my mono-black weenie deck is populated by a number of hybrid black creatures, such as Demigod of Revenge (black/red), Wasp Lancer (black/blue), and even a couple of new creatures from Eventide.

I'm thinking of grabbing this little beauty:

Or this:


At the same time, I'm working on upgrading my old green token deck. It's already an efficient deck for producing tokens. My brother (and my friend, Alicia) are both capable of generating thousands (literally!) of elf tokens with the deck. However, I've always worried that if it couldn't get certain cards into play, it just lacked a big amount of hitting power. However, thanks to hybrid cards from the latest expansion, I can add that much-needed hitting power.

Thank you to the Doomgape and Creakwood Liege.

Oh, and on an unrelated note, I feel bad for my friend Alicia. She's found a woman that's basically the second love of her life, and now she only has two weeks left with her. Kind of sad, really. Still, she's happy she's found love, even for a short while.